Senin, 09 Februari 2009

End of Battle

Wew... sidang sudah selesai barusan dan saia dapet nilai B dari dosen yang konon memiliki predikat 'seram' waktu nyidang. Well, akhirnya pertarungan selesai dan saia lulus. *pose kemenangan*

Should I be happy? proud? excited? or should I feel differently? yet, I felt nothing. I felt nothing at the end of it (di luar fakta kalo Ten Ryu senang dapet nilai B sih... but it can only make me happy less than an hour until it run dry when I arrived at home... >_<) tapi hal yang besar di sini adalah saia sudah lulus sidang tapi mengapa tidak ada rasa apapun dalam diri saia? Not even a glimpse of satisfaction... T_T

The same thing happened when I just graduated from high school, felt nothing but loneliness 'coz it means separation from the usual friends. Did I miss something? Then what the hell is so special about that? self improvement? nope! or is it for the ego? nope! All of them feel great when they finish their study, but why not me? I can feel happier when listening to a music for heaven sake!! Argh... it makes me go nuts!! >_<

"I felt afraid when this project is over and so our relationship is too" -Ten Ryu

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